Something about Marney; Anella couldnt put her finger on it or why this girl could stir up such anxiety within her, but she did and it put Anella in a completely uncomfortable position. She hated being this person, she hated being this girl that was filled with confusion, insecurity and self doubt.
Things with Tyler had been going amazingly. He was consistently a different person; different in a way that a caterpiller is still the same as a butterfly though it has undergone a change; different in the way that the ocean rises up and can swallow something whole, how a calm, flat ripple can transform into a glorious wave that shows charachter, and promise, yet is volatile, unpredictable and could possibly hurt you. It is still the same ocean.
But tonight Anella put a dent into things. It had been an skeleton of hers for a long time. Marney and her had never been close, despite being one of Tylers close friends. There was a vibe that Anella could sense which just made her feel uncomfortable and sick. Similar to the feeling when insecurity gives you a lingering hug.
This wasn't the first time Anella had brought up the discussion about Marney, but it had been the first time since they had gotten back together; sitting in the car avoiding eye contact.
Their friendship seemed so odd to her; it was obscure at times and others the exact opposite, yet not in the way that two old friends would react after not seeing eachother awhile. This was love. It pained her to see it and more so to admit it. Tyler denied her every time stating that it was just a friendship similar to Anella and Jaycee's however this put a sour taste in her mouth.
Her friendship with Jaycee was more than just a platonic friendship; he was family; not by blood but by mind and soul; this was a friendship from lifes ago, perhaps a millenia. Two old souls reunited. There was a rarity about their friendship; like a white crow. Anella strongly believed that no one would have such a connection, especially in a completely platonic way. The idea was so foriegn to her that she refused to believe that the world was so small that two other old souls might meet within the same city as her, not to mention that it would be her boyfriend and his good friend.
Anella forgot how much she was loved. She went to bed in tears after confronting Tyler earlier in the evening feeling embarrassed for having acted a fool and ignorant, yet again.
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